omg, so this is serious.. im not joking.. MR. IDK WIW texted today from georgia ): wtf?? why does he do shit like this to me. Why is it that he texts me.. and then he waits a while.. when i completely forgot about him.. and then BOOM a text from him.. so my phone deleted all my contacts and everything.. so i lost his and everyone elses number.. so im going to type of our conversation...
MR.IDKwiw: Hey
Me:Who is this?
MR.IDKwiw: Ur Sugar Daddy
Me:Huh? Seriously who is this??
(by this time im thinking its my boyfriend texting me from who knows)
MR.IDKwiw: Ur Best Buddy take a guess. Im always wearing green now.
Me:Idk Who this is.. lol always wearing green??? idk just tell me.. i hate guessing! lol
(i still think its my boyfriend)
MR.IDKwiw:Its me ********(no names)
Me:Ohhh lol you scared me for a second
MR.IDKwiw:lol what you been up too?
ME: Nothing just back home from Hu Ke Lau
MR.IDKwiw:so you been missing me?
ME:.......
and thats where it ends.. if you have been keeping up with my blogs like when i first started you totally understand where the hell im coming from.. Its not that i like MR.IDKwiw cause i dont.. hes just a total douche bag. and it kills me to know that i used to be all over that.. and i so regret him using me.. like i said before if you been reading my blogs you'll understand.. he used me. and its not cool and he stupid enough to ask me that question.. i seriously hate him.. so Mr.IDKwiw.. if your reading this.. dont text me again.. please i ask you nicely.. actually i beg you nicely.. please dont.. i dont anything to do with you and your seriously not ruining shit this time.. i have my boyfriend who is amazing and i dont want you or anything you do ruining shit for me. so leave me the hell aloneeee.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
"charlene you are totally blowing him with your eyes"
haha, that was the highlight of my night. when my cousins and sister told me that! when i totally was not blowing the hu ke lau drummer with my eyes. haha. seriously i wasnt. he was hot, and yeah i stared at him a few times but it was just cause he was in my way.. i have a boyfriend people. i dont do that type of stuff when im in a relationship especially a committed one like i am in now. lol but hey the familys table was not the only table going crazy for him, the table next to us had girls screaming for his crazy drumming self. lol ahh man the picture on the side of this is of him.. you tell me what you think? was it worth my ears ringing after i left hu ke lau?? leave me comments or email me.
Friday, February 27, 2009
i just want to say.. what the hay! haha
Why hey ya'll. I decided what the hay, i just want take pictures today then i decided what the hay.. i want to make fun of girls who take pictures a certain way.. haha. lol Well uhh, yeah look at the hot face im making in the picturee. dont hate.. this is for all you girls who think they look cute while make that face and putting up your little peace sign that you can ever see.. haha.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
A short essay about a past or present relationship w/ anyone.
My Writing class asked to write a short essay about a past or present relationship, they asked to get into detail and really into depth. This is what i wrote, its not finished but yeah.. give me lots of feedback, i would really appreciate it. (the person i wrote about must know im talking about him) But seriously... FEEDBACK!
(ps. i have to read this out loud, and it probably sounds lousy until you actually hear me speaking.)
You make me the happiest girl alive.. you make me want to scream outside and look crazy, and scream out how much i feel for you! you dont understand how i feel.. i feel happy, chills, warm, safe with you.. i want to be in your arms as soon as i can and just kiss and hug you and close my eyes and smell your scent. Your a drug to me, i fean for you.. i get withdrawls when i only speak to you over the phone and not see you. I want you! i want you now.. your the only one who will cure this addiction i have towards you. You might be the one, The one i want to see every morning when i open my eyes and every night before i close my eyes. your amazing.
I go crazy when i dont hear you, i daydream about what it would be like if i was with you at the moment. I go crazy.. did you hear me?
Your the light that shines from my own sun. There are many reasons i wake up in the morning, and you are one of them.. <3 your the best, i never thought i would be this way towards any man. I never thought any other man would treat me the way that you do.. you know how to make me smile, how to make me into the happiest girl alive. There is just one thing missing.. the icing on the cake.. your touch.. i want to know how you caress me, how you touch my face and hands, how you kiss me. I close my eyes and wonder.. i feel my neck to try and feel your touch.. but its not possible..
it all feels like a dream, and i havent woken up to see that its all fake.. i cant believe myself.. i cant believe im with you.. (sorry this was an essay/short essay for my class, i havent gotten around to finishing it. but its due next week so i have to finish.. and i will post the rest when i do)
(ps. i have to read this out loud, and it probably sounds lousy until you actually hear me speaking.)
You make me the happiest girl alive.. you make me want to scream outside and look crazy, and scream out how much i feel for you! you dont understand how i feel.. i feel happy, chills, warm, safe with you.. i want to be in your arms as soon as i can and just kiss and hug you and close my eyes and smell your scent. Your a drug to me, i fean for you.. i get withdrawls when i only speak to you over the phone and not see you. I want you! i want you now.. your the only one who will cure this addiction i have towards you. You might be the one, The one i want to see every morning when i open my eyes and every night before i close my eyes. your amazing.
I go crazy when i dont hear you, i daydream about what it would be like if i was with you at the moment. I go crazy.. did you hear me?
Your the light that shines from my own sun. There are many reasons i wake up in the morning, and you are one of them.. <3 your the best, i never thought i would be this way towards any man. I never thought any other man would treat me the way that you do.. you know how to make me smile, how to make me into the happiest girl alive. There is just one thing missing.. the icing on the cake.. your touch.. i want to know how you caress me, how you touch my face and hands, how you kiss me. I close my eyes and wonder.. i feel my neck to try and feel your touch.. but its not possible..
it all feels like a dream, and i havent woken up to see that its all fake.. i cant believe myself.. i cant believe im with you.. (sorry this was an essay/short essay for my class, i havent gotten around to finishing it. but its due next week so i have to finish.. and i will post the rest when i do)
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
20 ways id like to do you..
1.i love how you tell me you miss me all the time, it shows me you really want see me.
2.your a silly boy, just like me but im a girl lol.
3.you call me beautiful when my hair is messy and stupid.
4.you make me want to be a even better person.
5.your sexy inside and out.
6.you make me smile by just calling me and saying HEY to me.
7.you treat me better than I could’ve ever expected to be treated by any man.
8.they way you have opened me up, and now i can talk about mostly everything with you.
9.you got me over fears I never thought I would get over.
10.i love how you could eat like 5o billion differeent things at once, and still be hungry
11.you like me for the way i am, not for my looks.
12.Theres no one like you.. I can’t even explain it. You’re so different, so perfect.
13.You respect I want our first time together to be something special.
14.How we talk about our future together, every litttle aspect of it.
15.your voice
16. the way you say the word, "MAN"
17.i love how you talk about UFO's and Aliens, Monsters, and underwater monsters.. etc.
18.how you tell me that ive made a difference in your life.
19.how you used to tell me you were afraid to kiss me cause your afraid of me rejecting you.
20.its just me and you... and thats all... <3
________________
His response to my blog:
1.i can be myself around you
2.your beautiful
3.the sexiest smile ever (with the missing teeth lol)
4.you improve a person
5.you taught me how to like a lady for her (not big butts or big boobies)
6.you show me u care
7.u tell me im perfect when im not
8.u never let me fall
9.i love how you are random like me
10.everything bout you turns me on !!!!!!!!! lmao ur the best baby
i couldnt ask for anything else i have a perfect girlfriend
2.your a silly boy, just like me but im a girl lol.
3.you call me beautiful when my hair is messy and stupid.
4.you make me want to be a even better person.
5.your sexy inside and out.
6.you make me smile by just calling me and saying HEY to me.
7.you treat me better than I could’ve ever expected to be treated by any man.
8.they way you have opened me up, and now i can talk about mostly everything with you.
9.you got me over fears I never thought I would get over.
10.i love how you could eat like 5o billion differeent things at once, and still be hungry
11.you like me for the way i am, not for my looks.
12.Theres no one like you.. I can’t even explain it. You’re so different, so perfect.
13.You respect I want our first time together to be something special.
14.How we talk about our future together, every litttle aspect of it.
15.your voice
16. the way you say the word, "MAN"
17.i love how you talk about UFO's and Aliens, Monsters, and underwater monsters.. etc.
18.how you tell me that ive made a difference in your life.
19.how you used to tell me you were afraid to kiss me cause your afraid of me rejecting you.
20.its just me and you... and thats all... <3
________________
His response to my blog:
1.i can be myself around you
2.your beautiful
3.the sexiest smile ever (with the missing teeth lol)
4.you improve a person
5.you taught me how to like a lady for her (not big butts or big boobies)
6.you show me u care
7.u tell me im perfect when im not
8.u never let me fall
9.i love how you are random like me
10.everything bout you turns me on !!!!!!!!! lmao ur the best baby
i couldnt ask for anything else i have a perfect girlfriend
Saturday, February 21, 2009
who feels a little frisky? cause i doooo.
Well uh todays been a rough day, idk.. very down lately so i just sat down on my bed and just wroteeeee. i mean i wrote up a storm. haha, i just jotted down everything that was on my mind.. so ive decided to share shit with you.. its kind of weird because if you dont know how to read it. then your shit outta luck because your going to think im the worst writer everrr. lol you need the right tone, the right pauses for it.. so if you know me, call me ill read it out for you! lol here it goes:::: (there might grammer, and spelling problems but its just i didnt want to fix anything up because i think its better when i just shoot it all out and leave it how it is.. you get a better feel of the mood i was in)::
(idk you give me a title for this...)
i dont want you to forgive me, i dont want to tell me its ohk
tell me its wrong, its ohk to say that to me.
I must learn that i can never try to sneak around and always have it my way
I cant always get away with everything
i cant talk my way out of things
which is what i do most of the time.
i want to feel love with you, i want to know what it feels like with you..
i want to experience the "butterflies" the no words, but were still speaking" chills down my spine, and breaths not being taken when your around me feeling.. is that what it is?
i hate people talking about it and just say it to there partner just to say it.
thats not me, i want to say it to the one whom i actually love, and i will find him someday
but i hope that him is you,
i wish to fall in love with you
i wish to be the one who you want to wake up in the middle of the night and just stare at me
and think to yourself.. i love that girl.. i want to be that girl.
I feel as though it would be perfect to fall in love with someone like you
maybe im in denial, or maybe i just want to fall in love with you but to afraid i might get hurt.
thats just an instink i have inside because in my heart and in my mind, i trust you, i trust your words, your actions and everything else.
You make me feel special like if there no other prettier girl waiting out there for you
if im just the only one who matters to you
the one whos going to be your wife one day and have as many children as you want with her.
i want to fall in love you
i just dont know how, i dont know when it will happen.. does it just happen?
will i know when i feel this unknown feeling.. that everyone calls love??
what is it? can you explain? can you explain what the feeling is?
do i sound desperate? do i sound as if i want to force myself to be in love with the one who makes me feel special, the one who makes me the happiest women alive? which is you.
why do i ask so many questions?
is it cause im insecure.. but of what? you?
do i feel inside that i might lose you?
that maybe.. just maybe im not good enough
cause thats what i used to think..
i wasnt good enough to be your girlfriend once more.
i was stupid and selfish and wanted everything and everyone to myself
which is why i left you, which is why i wanted you even more when it was all over between us
which why everytime i saw your face i just wanted to grab you and make out with you like if no one was watching, like if you were mines and i was yours and no one else mattered.
I daydreamed about you and thought about us being so passionet with each other
i loved looking into your light eyes and watch them change into a picture of me and you together holding hands and being happy together, and then the picture would fade and id realize i didnt matter to you, you had a girlfriend whom you were very "in love with".. did you really love them? cause if you did, then you must know what this feeling.. or should i say that unknown feeling that ive never felt before is?..explain? or is it not explainable?
i want to fall in love with you...
(idk you give me a title for this...)
i dont want you to forgive me, i dont want to tell me its ohk
tell me its wrong, its ohk to say that to me.
I must learn that i can never try to sneak around and always have it my way
I cant always get away with everything
i cant talk my way out of things
which is what i do most of the time.
i want to feel love with you, i want to know what it feels like with you..
i want to experience the "butterflies" the no words, but were still speaking" chills down my spine, and breaths not being taken when your around me feeling.. is that what it is?
i hate people talking about it and just say it to there partner just to say it.
thats not me, i want to say it to the one whom i actually love, and i will find him someday
but i hope that him is you,
i wish to fall in love with you
i wish to be the one who you want to wake up in the middle of the night and just stare at me
and think to yourself.. i love that girl.. i want to be that girl.
I feel as though it would be perfect to fall in love with someone like you
maybe im in denial, or maybe i just want to fall in love with you but to afraid i might get hurt.
thats just an instink i have inside because in my heart and in my mind, i trust you, i trust your words, your actions and everything else.
You make me feel special like if there no other prettier girl waiting out there for you
if im just the only one who matters to you
the one whos going to be your wife one day and have as many children as you want with her.
i want to fall in love you
i just dont know how, i dont know when it will happen.. does it just happen?
will i know when i feel this unknown feeling.. that everyone calls love??
what is it? can you explain? can you explain what the feeling is?
do i sound desperate? do i sound as if i want to force myself to be in love with the one who makes me feel special, the one who makes me the happiest women alive? which is you.
why do i ask so many questions?
is it cause im insecure.. but of what? you?
do i feel inside that i might lose you?
that maybe.. just maybe im not good enough
cause thats what i used to think..
i wasnt good enough to be your girlfriend once more.
i was stupid and selfish and wanted everything and everyone to myself
which is why i left you, which is why i wanted you even more when it was all over between us
which why everytime i saw your face i just wanted to grab you and make out with you like if no one was watching, like if you were mines and i was yours and no one else mattered.
I daydreamed about you and thought about us being so passionet with each other
i loved looking into your light eyes and watch them change into a picture of me and you together holding hands and being happy together, and then the picture would fade and id realize i didnt matter to you, you had a girlfriend whom you were very "in love with".. did you really love them? cause if you did, then you must know what this feeling.. or should i say that unknown feeling that ive never felt before is?..explain? or is it not explainable?
i want to fall in love with you...
Dammnnnn its been a while.
hollaaa. for real.
so uh im going to post a few blogs today ive just been really busy lately.. haha. i went off today to ready i older post on this blog and uhh, god damn i was a crazy bitch.. i went from heart breaks to skaterboys to boobs to sex to army to back to fucking heart breaks and then im back now with a whole new different heart.. i dont have heartaches anymore, and i have a full heart now. no more loneliness.... why????????? because i have a boyfriend named robbie! its crazy me and robbie met about..4, 5 years agoo back in freshman year. He has this wicked long story about me, it has to do with myspace, interent, homeroom and BAM! the BAM part is.. us being together as a couple back freshman year. haha, well we broke up because of me.. blah blah blah.. and then i used to see him through out the years and still had like the biggest crush on him. haha. funny right!?!?! well uh yeah we used to talk all the time he used to leave me for girls which made me always feel like shit, i used to get boyfriends bump them.. whatever, and then.. idk i told him how i finally felt and now we are together.. woo hooooo
happiest ive ever been,
charlieeeee boooooo
so uh im going to post a few blogs today ive just been really busy lately.. haha. i went off today to ready i older post on this blog and uhh, god damn i was a crazy bitch.. i went from heart breaks to skaterboys to boobs to sex to army to back to fucking heart breaks and then im back now with a whole new different heart.. i dont have heartaches anymore, and i have a full heart now. no more loneliness.... why????????? because i have a boyfriend named robbie! its crazy me and robbie met about..4, 5 years agoo back in freshman year. He has this wicked long story about me, it has to do with myspace, interent, homeroom and BAM! the BAM part is.. us being together as a couple back freshman year. haha, well we broke up because of me.. blah blah blah.. and then i used to see him through out the years and still had like the biggest crush on him. haha. funny right!?!?! well uh yeah we used to talk all the time he used to leave me for girls which made me always feel like shit, i used to get boyfriends bump them.. whatever, and then.. idk i told him how i finally felt and now we are together.. woo hooooo
happiest ive ever been,
charlieeeee boooooo
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