FUCK MY LIFEE. you might not hear from me for a while..

Today i went to the ER. Really earlyy and uh i came back in like "dying mode" I dont want to be here anymore seriously.. no like suicidle wise.. like i want to go farrr.. i want to just leave this town and do whatever. why?? because lately ive been shitty i always get hurt, im always a cluts and everyone around me is sick of it. no one ever believes me anymore when im hurt. its not my fault that im this way, ever since i was younger i was always this way. who ever knew me last year knew how fucked up i was because of dance. I was in crutches, i was on a wheel chair, and i was also in bed one time and couldnt get up. it sucks, i wish i could just start my life over and reset everything and try and change something so i wouldnt have such fragile bones and i could actually do shit when i was a child. its prevented me from doing so many things.. the day i was diagnosed with arthiritus was the day my life ended.. and then my doctor goes ahead and makes me feel like shit tell me these exact words that i would never forget: "live your life as a normal person, like if you didnt have fragile bones".. WTF? i am normal.. its just arthiritus i thought. then now its hitting me, i dont i can live with it.. it ruined my life.. and so did dance.. i broken so many bones and injured almost everything on my body because of it. ): back to what i was saying about me going to the ER.. i was told that i have 2 torn muscles on my rib cage.. and thats also the reason for me having pain on my boobs because of it. the doctor said it has been caused by me stretching.. so i have to stay in bed and try not to lift anything heavy or dance for 2 weeks..which i cant do because of uh.. i have a big even coming up and i have to dance in it and i have to finish my new routine that i havent finished.. and i cant do any of it because of my stupid bones and stupid arthiritus that caused everything. I HATE ME right now.. i seriously do.. and all this shit is going on today and i cant do any of it because my mother is taking doctors orders and not letting me do anything.. i want to see my boyfriend and i cant.. and i cnat even tell him that i cant because my phone is not turning on which suckss. FUCK MY LIFEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! uhhhh. well heres a picture of what my effin xrays looked like... ughhhhhhhhhhhh.